How have you been? (And why do I do this?)

15/12/2024

I've been really busy being dead (you know, after you murdered me?)

Obscure references aside, most of my projects and this site have died over the last few months as I have been preoccupied with first my car and friends, then my job, then some other stuff I'd rather not talk about. Now I don't make these posts with the hope of there being regular readers. I am not making this site with the hope of it getting attention.

After I found out about Neocities, and by extension Geocties (which I believe I used at the time, but I forgot what it was) - I decided I wanted to make a site for the fun of it. However, the decision to make a blog was more intentional - I find myself posting my opinions on the internet sometimes. I try to only post if I think what I'm about to say hasn't been said a million times before.

As is common amongst Neurodivergent people, I often have full on conversations with myself - not just thinking about something, but there is an actual back and forth about the topic occurring in my mind. It may sound crazy, but, I am sure there's only the one voice in there and I don't actually hear it, so I'm fairly confident I'm not hearing voices. Some of these are unique, I think it's pretty safe to say that most people have opinions that have never been said before. I like talking to others about these, although we live in a world where the time for that is lacking (especially if you're coming up with shit 24/7). That is why I think I am often posting my opinion online.

Videos are my favourite format, but my living situation leaves me rarely able to sit and talk to a camera without some child's destruction getting in the recording, so I don't make them that often. I find myself leaving comments on other people's stuff, and Reddit... yuck. Here's where this gets relevant: this encourages me to spend more time on YT and Reddit than I want to, actually, I don't really like using Reddit at all, and I'm ditching YT as soon as a few creators I like do the same. I am also posting in a place that's clearly aimed at someone (Subreddits, creators of videos, etc), even though really, 99% of the time, no one cares. I don't want to get into a habit of expecting or wanting a response. Those are the reasons I have started blogging - I post my thoughts online, and that's it. If no one sees it, it doesn't make any difference, because this place isn't designed to enable you to respond.

Anyways, I am hoping to be more active now. I have started half a dozen posts, they should eventually bleed through, and there is a lot of information I need to get into the HUB about obscure electrical devices and Falcon BMS.